I, Sarah Ditty, go by many names; and each name represents a different aspect
of me, of my personality. No matter what you choose to call me, you are getting
all of me. I recently entered my fourth decade and that is something I am proud
of. Society has us hiding our age, our wrinkles, the gray hairs…I have chosen
to embrace them and shout out that they are a reflection of what I have achieved
and what it took to get here. Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes says that those who
have lived and have the scars to prove it, can be counted amongst the “Scar Clan.”
I am a proud member of the Scar Clan, for I have truly lived.
Everyone who has worked with me or is counted amongst my circle of friends knows
that what I treasure most is each individual’s journey. It is not for me to place
judgement on what you have/haven’t done or what has happened to you. What I am
interested in is where you want to go and what you want to do with the information
you have gleaned during this journey called Life. I want to know what you desire
and where you struggle so that I may help you find what you are looking for. Some
desire connection, to self, to Source, to others…to be truly seen and truly known.
For some, they desire courage, or fortitude, or discipline. And for many, there’s
the desire to make the pain go away. I have come to learn that the blockage that
keeps us from attaining our desires is frequently rooted in fear. And it is fear
that holds the answer.
For many of us, too much of our life is kept in secret. We fear what people will
think and how they will react if we tell them the truth…the truth about who we
really are, how we really feel, what we really think, and what we have done, are
doing, or will do. We’ve been taught that curiosity is something to suppress; so
that when we do explore, we do so in secrecy while trying to push away any feelings
of shame, guilt, inadequacy or worthlessness that may surface. We’ve all told lies
and have kept secrets in order to survive, to “keep” our dignity, to maintain the
façade and status quo. We fear the backlash, the consequences…and for some, they
are very real. I’m okay with it all. In fact, that’s what I love about being human…
the truth of our humanity, our vulnerability, and the fears that unite us all!
My desire is to create a safe and supporting environment where people can relax and
sink into themselves. Based on experience, it is in the relaxing and the sinking that
our hidden self is given permission to emerge. It is also in this space where we learn
to face the skeletons in the closet, bring them out into the light, and then smile at
how far we’ve come. I am here to be a non-judgmental guide, to help facilitate the
process, and hold space for you as you unfold and allow your truth to emerge. As I see
it, my job is to help you navigate what comes to the surface, and to help you integrate
all of you back into you.
How did I come to believe this way…well it has been a long and wild ride. I have lived
in ashrams, Asia, traveled the world, studied Shamanism, indigenous cultures, plant
medicine, yoga, meditation, Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine, martial arts, music, energetics,
somatic psychology, paganism, read extensively, attended numerous workshops and trainings,
obtained a BA in International Business Management and an MA in Counseling Psychology.
I have been married and have divorced. I have quit things I have started (which is rare
for a type-A personality). I have been a friend of religion, of 12-Step programs, and
Mother Nature’s school of spirituality. I have sat at the feet of amazing teachers,
traveled the world in pursuit of finding “My Purpose,” and have gotten lost many times,
feeling completely alone and confused. I have been clinically treated for OCD and
depression. I have battled chronic allergies and sickness and the pursuit of healing has
led me down several of these paths. I have worked in Corporate America and have walked
away from a career. I have stayed in relationships far longer than I should have. I have
allowed others to tell me what I believe, what I should do, and who I was destined to
become…only to spend decades undoing everything that no longer served me or which was
never mine in the first place. I have cried, screamed, and been humbled. I have been
impatient, immature, and egotistical. I’ve been too proud to ask for help. I’ve been a
perfectionist who has worn myself out, for what cause? I’ve been the person who looks
like they have their shit together and yet I am chaos on the inside. I have stood up and
then fallen back down again only to find myself trying to figure out where to go from
here. I have seen and felt things that I will never fully understand. I have been
mentored by some of the most amazing people in the world. I used to think in black and
white, but have come to learn and love that gray is where it is really at…for nothing
is truly as black and white as may first appear. The truth is, life has only just begun.
I’ve discovered that the more I learn, the less I really know. And somewhere along the way,
all of this has come together to make sense. I am proud of where I have walked, what I
have learned, and am hopeful of where I will go. So here is to writing your own chapter!
And I hope that I get the privilege of being a small part of your story…now let’s go play!
Why Towering Fir
The Douglass Fir tree has graced this earth long before we inhabited the land. She
stand tall, reminding me that I too shall stand tall, empowered and strong, regardless
of the storms I have weathered. She whispers softly into the wind sharing her ancient
wisdom. She is a guide, a protector, a friend. It is under her watchful eye that we